Day 27 – A problem I have
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I have a lot of problems let’s
be honest, and no I’m not in a math class. My problems are many and deep, but
they are not the worst problems or the most of anyone. I do my best to not let
my problems affect my life but at times they do, otherwise they would not be a
problem. My primary problem is rooted in the abandonment issues from my
biological father not being a part of my life and the man I called dad
committing suicide when I was in second grade. This circumstance lead me
constantly to tell myself that I had to be better than I was/am in order to be
loved, and that if I let someone down that they would leave and I would be
alone.
So because I am so afraid
of letting people down, I am not good at saying no. I am also not good at
asking a question that I think “no” is the likely answer. Basically I am a
people pleaser to a fault. I will too often avoid conflict. I often give some
things more attention than they deserve at the cost of attention to things that
actually need more attention.
I am working on it. Pray
for me.
As Always thanks for your
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in the Love and Grace offered to you through Jesus Christ, and that you will
always remember Jeremiah 29:11. – For I know the plans I have for you
declares the Lord, Plans to Proper You and not for harm, Plans with Hope for
the Future.